crappy day

so today has turned out to be a not so good day. first it started off with me waking up at my usual 5:15am to get ready for work. i get ready, straighten my hair (which i hardly ever do), put my clothes on, eat my breakfast, and then head off to work. i get there and i'm totally prepared to work, and then i look at the schedule... i freaking CLOSE. so i call my regional mgr. who tells me to call the other assistant and ask him if he could close. turns out he has ... YOGA. yeah... seriously. so i have to drive back home (which wasn't too bad) and then drive back at 2pm. so, i mean... that part really wasn't that bad. i got a good 3-4 hour nap in between and got to eat lunch and get coffee... not rushed at all, which is what i like.

so i'm thinking that today isn't going to be that bad of a day afterall. yeah, i had to wake up earlier than usual, but whatever.... i got to treat myself to peet's coffee and stuff so no big deal.

then i get to work... from 5 until closing it was nonstop cleaning. every time i'd clean something, a huge mess would end up somewhere else. then there were the racks that was a never ending cycle of picking up shoes. i finally just gave up and figured i'd have someone do it at the end of the night. it was a very stressful night tonight. i found myself straightening one of the racks and thinking to myself that i kind of wanted to cry a little. BUT... i will not allow myself to cry over work. that's nonsense. it doesn't deserve my tears, and even though i'm pmsing right now so i'm technically allowed to be a big baby and cry... i don't want to.

i was pretty good today at not yelling at anyone and just being really... mmm... authoritative i guess you can say. someone would just be stupid as heck and i'd just talk to them like i was their mom or something instead of saying what i really wanted to say which was "you dumbshit! what is wrong with you!" instead i said in a monotoned voice what i wanted them to do and just let it go from there and just watched them until they did it correctly. it's really crazy. i swear some of these people hate me, but it sucks to be them because i'm in charge now. hahaha.. me power tripping? never. i am to the point though where if someone pisses me off i write them up. so i guess you can say that i'm a pro at that now since i've already given 2 since my mgr left on saturday.

i have to be up at 5:15am again tomorrow and i have tons of stuff to do in the morning. i just hope i can finish it all and keep the department up and running. i know i can do it... and i refuse to disappoint anyone or let anyone down, but at the same time... it's all very stressful. *sigh*

oh well... time to watch some "elf" to make myself happy i suppose. good night.